What don’t you do?


@postaday 249; #postaday2011.

What are your rules? What are your standards? Where do you draw the line? What don’t you do?

For me, some of those lines are blurrier than they used to be. Back when I was younger and perhaps more idealistic, more determined, and more rigid in my standards, I held firm to my ideals. But after a while, it hurt too much to maintain a such a tight grip for so long.

Although it’s something I’ve known about myself for a long time, yesterday I had to admit that I am my own worst critic, and that I’ve conditioned myself to always think that I lose before I am out the gate. It was something I wanted to admit. I always say “OWN IT!” and this was something I felt I needed to own, so I could kick it out of my life and be done with it. Why? Because I don’t want such a habit or existence to be an option for my children. And now I don’t want it to be an option for myself.

If I say yes to more, if I give myself permission to experience, explore and succeed, then I’ll live without regret, and I’ll live a life my daughters will admire.

Why is it easier for you than it is for me?

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Author: lavagal

Hawaii Kai wife and mom. Melanoma Stage 3a Cancer is my new opponent. Writer, super sub teacher, triathlete, awesome cook, ocean girl with head-to-toe sun protection.

3 thoughts on “What don’t you do?”

  1. What a simply beautiful post. Congratulations on taking hold and Owning the fact that you won’t be your worst critic any longer. I catch myself in the same situation and I’ll take your initiative to do this for myself as well.

    You are a winner….just take a look at where you’re living.

    Darryl

  2. I’ll have anUDDER Brue Hawai’i, gURLfriEnD.
    <<>>

    Not choo schweeeet.
    Not choo Rancik. (That’s mah Bill).

    x0x’s, m

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