What don’t you do?

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What are your rules? What are your standards? Where do you draw the line? What don’t you do?

For me, some of those lines are blurrier than they used to be. Back when I was younger and perhaps more idealistic, more determined, and more rigid in my standards, I held firm to my ideals. But after a while, it hurt too much to maintain a such a tight grip for so long.

Although it’s something I’ve known about myself for a long time, yesterday I had to admit that I am my own worst critic, and that I’ve conditioned myself to always think that I lose before I am out the gate. It was something I wanted to admit. I always say “OWN IT!” and this was something I felt I needed to own, so I could kick it out of my life and be done with it. Why? Because I don’t want such a habit or existence to be an option for my children. And now I don’t want it to be an option for myself.

If I say yes to more, if I give myself permission to experience, explore and succeed, then I’ll live without regret, and I’ll live a life my daughters will admire.

Why is it easier for you than it is for me?