I Like to Talk, but I Like to Listen More.

@postaday 351; #postaday2011.

I like to talk, but I have learned that there are some things  you do not say to others. I like to listen more than I like to talk; but I feel I appear dull and boring as a result. In fact, I’m pretty sure I am rather dull and boring.

Writing is far easier, and the observations I write can be edited before anyone gets to read them. Filters engaged.

When I’m in a group, no matter how loose it might get, there are just some things I don’t let myself talk about. I try to stay within safe subjects. And I let other people talk about what they want to. Whether I think it is exciting, astonishing, fun, dull or boring, I keep that to myself. To them, it’s important.

I think my Catholic upbringing has drilled into me that what I have to say is of little value to the rest of the room, and that I’m a person who is to recede to the back, to make way for the prettier flowers whose petals are perfectly in place. I was never that girl, I’m always a bit disheveled, but now, finally, I’m OK with being the quirky chick.

I like always having my secret thoughts. I’d like to share them, but I rarely do. I wonder if any of you ever really knew?

By lavagal

Hawaii Kai wife and mom. Melanoma Stage 3a Cancer survivor. English Language Arts teacher, English Learners Coordinator, and Paraprofessional Tutor. Super sub teacher. Dormant triathlete. Road cyclist and Masters swimmer. Gardener. Mrs. Fixit. Random dancer. Music Curator. A teenager trapped in an aging body. Did you know 60 is the new 40? It is.

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